Lately I haven’t been in much of a mood to write. It’s a shame because I have tons of nice photos and videos to post. But I’ll try to post them. My free time is so much better spent resting these days, it seems, than painting or writing or anything creative or productive.
Work is busy as usual… nothing to report.
Recently I talked to a few people I haven’t talked to in… well… years it seems. It’s amazing how much people and things change. It’s also amazing how well we can keep track of stuff like that on websites like Facebook. And it also amazes me how not-close I am with pretty much everybody back in Collingswood. Not that it’s ever been any different than that, but you reach points where it hits you in big chunks.
Today was a little productive, though, which is a plus. I had 2 Japanese lessons as usual, and then I went to the hospital. (I think my arm is broken… not sure though. Will go again on Wednesday, as the x-ray doctor wasn’t in today.) Then I called and went to the unemployment office to inquire about steps I need to take to prepare for this summer when I leave my job. And I cleaned my room a bit (mainly packing up my garbage… my garbage drop off zone changed and I don’t know where to bring it now, so I have to store it in my spare closet for the time). I guess it sounds like a shitty weekend when I put it all out like that, but I feel good that I was able to do a lot stuff on my own in Japanese (regardless of the fact that each attempt was totally fruitless).
That’s really all the news I guess. I feel kind of lost right now, having given up on one of my dreams to buy my granfather’s condo, my job future (and consequently my future as a legal resident of Japan) being uncertain, and friends and familiar things back home having changed (though that’s not really a bad thing; it’s a natural thing so it can’t be regretted). Not having a plan or a set future is a mixed blessing. During the times when I’m feeling ambitious it’s liberating and exciting; when I’m tired or uninspired it can be even more draining.